I don’t know why I am really asking this question, as I already know the answer, but it is something I seem to ask every time I look in the mirror. I still expect to see my highschool self looking back at me. Because the lady looking back at me now is no longer the hot skinny girl I was at 18.
Yes I know it has been almost twenty years, and that I am now a wife and the mother of three boys, but really, when did this happen? It of course didn’t happen over night but over many years. Years of eating yummy food and drinking even yummier wine. I am someone who really enjoys to eat. I love food. Sure I turn to it in times that I need a little extra comfort but I don’t save eating just for sad or depressed times, eating is a celebration. I simply love food and unfortunatley not food that is good for me. My story is no different from thousands of other people but I have decided I would really like to change my story. I don’t want to be fat.
Don’t get me wrong, I have a great life. A wonderful family, a successful career and friends that I love. I am blessed. But I am still fat. And fat isn’t nearly as fun as thin was. So I am going to attempt to change my current situation. I am going to make a pact with myself and with you that I am really going to try this time. I am not going to quit at the first sign of chocolate cake. I am going to do my best (which may not always get me results) and I am not going to give up on myself.
There will be plenty of time to fill you in on all the failures of my past, of my goals for the future and all of those reasons that I “believe” I am fat. But we are going to start slow. I will be taking the dreaded fat picture tonight. You know the one. The one you look at and really can’t believe it is you. Well I am going to post mine and then take a new one and post so you can see what we are starting with.
I am going to be dragging along my new personal trainer on this journey and a couple of friends, maybe even my husband, if I can convince him and we are going to hit the road to skinnyville. There may be stops along the way for me to wallow in my own self pity, so be for warned, but I plan to try to be as honest as possible on here. To show my true journey of trying to get thin and to be able to stop asking the question “So when did I get fat?”
